Fail Fast, Fail Often

Fail Fast, Fail Often

I like trying new things – ‘new’ to me, not necessarily new to the world. Take skiing and sky diving for instance, I have always wanted to try them and will do soon I’m sure. However, when it comes to implementing my own new ideas (or old ones), I procrastinate a lot, or do nothing at all.

It’s because I fear failure. But so do many people. That’s why they say “feel the fear and do it anyway” Right? (Side note: feel the fear and do it anyway within reason of course; let’s apply wisdom to such statements).

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Recently a friend of mine, who I happened to confide in, asked me what failure looks like to me and I struggled to explain myself to her. After some incoherent statements and mumbled blather, I finally managed “not being successful or executing my plan correctly” or something to that effect.

Success is subjective. I may not consider myself successful right now but others probably do. When I get a new idea (which happens often), I get excited and write notes, create plans and daydream about the pending awesomeness until the fear kicks in and everything screeches to a halt.

That’s one of the reasons I haven’t posted in so long. I have been unbelievably overwhelmed. That is not to say that I haven’t written because I have – it’s how I cope. I just don’t believe everything is meant to be shared (good or bad) – not immediately anyway. Maybe at a later stage, in hopes that other people may take something from my experiences / feel less isolated.

Having said that, a few good things did become apparent during my sequestering and I was reminded of the following:

  1. How loved I am – unconditionally
  2. The imortance of health and fragility of life
  3. Friendship is fickle and most people are selfish
  4. Some people are happy for you, until they perceive you to be doing doing better than them
  5. Weeping may endure for the night but joy comes in the morning

In the space of the past few weeks I have felt almost every conceivable emotion except anger and envy. It’s been exhausting at times but also enlightening and throughout it all, I I have strived to be¬†perpetually¬†grateful.

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